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[jpegghost]

I realize I've been gone ... A while.

I'm not dead. I had a locked entry that explained my recent problems with health regarding COVID, but long story short I quit yesterday. The mental issues were too severe and I had a boss that said suicidal people should "just get over it". She was as understanding as you'd imagine (not).

I have a bad habit of cutting myself off from society when I'm sad, or stressed, or any negative feeling of that kind. I also realize that from the 17 messages in my inbox that there are people concerned about me.

I'll try to be more regular about posting, but I feel like I lost my edge. My job was a lot to me, and I feel robbed. I also feel like the one thing that makes me interesting is gone. I'm mad, I'm sad, I'm frustrated. I'm looking into new options that I have an equal passion in, maybe tattooing. Idk.

Comments

[annofowlshire]

*hugs* It’s good to hear from you again. I’m sorry things are so hard right now.

[jpegghost]

Thanks friend, I'll be okay. I'm just frustrated by the injustice of it all.

[beanside]

I'm sorry things have been so shitty. That sounds like A. Lot. to deal with.

[jpegghost]

It's been a real whirlwind, mental illness is no joke. Healthcare professionals need a break.

[amejisuto]

I'm sorry you're feeling so lost. At least you know you're doing what is best for you in the long run. I'd don't know if you have the right qualifications but have you thought of being a crime scene type of person? Or would that be too much for your PTSD?

Anyhoo, I'm just glad to hear from you and want you to know you're on my mind.

[jpegghost]

I actually really considered that, but that requires several years of med school and a law enforcement degree. I definitely don't have the time or money for that!

Thanks Ameeee <3

[amejisuto]

You're welcome! I hope you find something that gives you joy! <3<3<3

[azurelunatic]

That ex-boss sounds terrible and I'm glad you're out of that situation.

[jpegghost]

She said she hates the feral cat population so she purposefully runs them over in her car. I genuinely wish I was joking.

[azurelunatic]

OMFG what a moral black hole of a person!

[dark_phoenix54]

What a horrible person your ex-boss sounds like! I don't blame you for quitting. Between PTSD and her, it had to be a horror story working there. Especially given the conditions right now. I am glad to see you back. You're not a less interesting person because you don't have that job now.

I do the same thing, cutting myself off frequently. I read social media, and sometimes comment, but don't post for days.. weeks... months...So I get it.

[jpegghost]

Sometimes it's too hard to post!

[alee_grrl]

Sending all the hugs. You're absolutely interesting regardless of what you do for work, but I am sorry you have had to leave a career path that you were passionate about. I also totally get hermiting when not doing well mental health wise. I often do that myself.

I'm so sorry your boss was super unsupportive and in fact making the situation worse. That's some epic bullshit right there.

Seriously all the virtual hugs. <3 <3 <3

[jpegghost]

Thank you Mandaaaa <3

I hermit bad. My friends were texting my boyfriend saying they hadn't heard from me, one of them just assumed I was dead lmfao I get that bad. I just want to disappear into a hole and not come out.

[alee_grrl]

I know that place so well. *hugs*